eniarelocin: (Just Born)

Ewan-3433
Originally uploaded by NicoleRaine
This picture doesn't show Ewan's room, but know this: I've spent all weekend making sure he has one. What does this mean? This means that aside from the filing cabinet and a few things on the high shelf in the closet I've gotten my stuff out of his room. It's not longer Ewan's room/my leftover junk. This morning Papa Joe (my dad) came over and helped me move two bookshelves down into the garage where I've made a work space and framing area... and mostly organized that half of the garage. After that Grammy Tammy (my mom) came over and played with Ewan while Stephen put together the nice wooden bookcase that Grammy Tammy (my mom) bought for Ewan. Ewan giggled and squealed with her for quite a while... and then they took a nap together. Stephen may think a lot of this stuff is 'my stuff' but I'm really doing it for Ewan.

Ewan is nearing 5 1/2 months old. He's changing every week and every day. Every day his eyes are a little brighter, everyday he's a little more with it. He says his own version of 'I love you' which sounds something like "I uuh ooooo" or some variation. He says mama when when he wants me (especially when he's with someone else) and 'meh' still means that he's hungry.

He's remembering things better now. I think that long term memory might be kicking in. It's not just motor skill development now. He's learning how things work. Last week he learned how to make the frog on his car seat toy play music. Yesterday I was showing him which buttons on his mobile make the music and today he tried to push them.

He wants our food. He really wants our cups. He knows how to drink out of cups even though he can't hold big ones on his own really. We need to get the little dude a sippie cup and every day it's getting harder to hold off from feeding him solids and things.

He's practicing sitting up on his own and can for some seconds, sometimes nearly a minute, before listing over to one side or another... or heading face first for his toes which he likes to suck on when he's on his back. He's pushing up when he's on his tummy but hasn't figured out what to do with his legs. However, he does try very hard to propel himself in whatever direction he likes to go. He'll be on the move in no time. This, coupled with Spring Break, fueled the urgency to give him his own room. Beyond this, I hope it will be more comfortable for whoever comes over to watch him at any given time as it's easy to get and feel displaced in our house.

His sleeping patterns are all off and crazy. He doesn't want to be nursed to sleep as much anymore or even rocked to sleep many nights. He wants to be flat and so I've been letting him go to sleep on his own in the crib. Sometimes it works. Sometimes it doesn't. One thing I do know is that for some ridiculous reason he won't sleep through the night if he goes to bed before 11pm, but he will if goes to sleep after 11. I don't get it. Tonight he fell asleep around 9 and I couldn't wake him up. I sat him up several times and he rolled his head around and flopped his arms... but wouldn't wake up. And so he's in his crib even though I know it means punishment for me later.

Ewan is an amazing little dude. I am constantly battling with my overdeveloped ambition and being his mother. It's a struggle everyday, but he always comes first. I always want to be everywhere yesterday, but he reminds me to slow down and not stress out so much. Doing uni and trying to do the business thing has really been a challenge for me in the last few months. I don't really know where things are going. I think it about it constantly... when I'm laying in bed at night and should be sleeping... and the only answer I have is that he is the most important thing there can be. I may not always know the right answers or exactly what the right thing is, but I try to do the right things for him. I really hope I can do a good job.

He's such a sweet, inquisitive boy. He has a sensitive soul- he feels everything, you can tell. He loves music and singing. He likes looking at pictures. He's bashful and yet such a flirt. Despite all my secret hopes, he's definitely into pretty girls. I hope that I can help him grow and nurture all of these wonderful qualities.



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eniarelocin: (Owl Hat)
In the upcoming weeks and months I am/will be in need of models for some specific photographic projects. So, if you would like some free photography- this is your lucky day. Anyone looking to build a modeling portfolio is especially welcome. If our needs line up, or if you are just happy to play around in front of a camera then I would like to schedule a shoot asap and as far in advance as possible. All work must be model released and I will trade some prints for time. Anyone under 18 must also have their model release signed by a parent or guardian.

I'm not opposed to doing nudes, but would never ask that of someone underaged or uncomfortable. All of my work is tasteful, professional and artistic. However, I'm happy to try new and different things - which is the point of this project. Some of my previous work is available at NicoleRaine.com and on flickr.

Please Email Me or leave a comment if you're interested and include your name, location, and indicate when you would be available. Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays are best for me. I need at least one person every week now through mid May - that's at least 12 people. Please plan to have 1 - 2 hours available for the shoot.
Specific Shoots and Deadlines )
Thank you for your interest and your help!
eniarelocin: (Belly Foot)
I came back to work for the first time last week, on the 6th. Here I am again. I keep thinking that I will have 2 free hours to do whatever I want to like reading or writing, or other simple activities that involve two hands at the same time. Instead, I basically spend two hours sitting here and looking at pictures of Ewan on Flickr. Today I namely started doing so because my mom dropped off a couple of pictures of me at roughly the same age for comparison. There is quite a striking resemblance.
eniarelocin: (Lensbaby Portrait)
Is it a bad sign that I dream about stock photo negotiations and running out of current business cards?
eniarelocin: (Lensbaby Portrait)
It's after 10pm. I've been working since just after 10am.

Today started with a shoot. Professionals. Nothing fancy or terribly exciting but I think it went rather smoothly, especially considering that I basically set up a studio on location today. All of my equipment performed beautifully. The pictures I brought home were pretty much on the money other than minor WB tweaking. Not too bad really. The only regret I have is that I didn't 1) watch the time and 2)stand up and say that we hadn't agreed/planned on doing group photos and given that it took an extra hour, I should have billed her for it. But I didn't. Oh well. Live and learn. I suppose in a tiny way it evens out in that the person who forgot about the shoot is having to come on Wednesday for a make up and paying a separate fee for that. Works for me. That almost covers my phone bill.

Came home to find Stephen and Charlotte, chatted a bit, then back to work.

I got out an order that was placed on Friday. That's a turnaround time that I'm proud of and hope to keep up. It's nice to say, "Hi, thanks for your payment, your order has been shipped and you'll have it tomorrow." :) W00t. This also means that PayPal invoicing thing is working pretty well... other than the having to send an explanation email, but it's better than nothing for right now. Further improvements to come.

So, shoot this morning, order shipped, and further invoicing tonight. I hope this keeps up. I have so much more to do.

I know, I know, I'm not supposed to over do it. I'm going to have [decaf] coffee with someone tonight and chill out. This doesn't of course means that my brain is going to stop running... but it's good to get out of the house.

Either way, much in the way of productiveness has been accomplished and of this I am proud. This is my high.

Now, if only I could get this excited about laundry...
eniarelocin: (Lensbaby Portrait)
This week, this morning especially, I'm making people happy with photography.

I got a WOW! from my bride who finally checked her email and saw her pictures. I emailed her Friday and waited all weekend to hear her reaction. Big suspense. Always is.

Today I delivered a fine art order to one of my favourite customers, Michelle. She was very excited to see them and that was wonderful. She showed them to everyone she could. (I delivered them her restaurant.) I will be excited to see them hanging on the wall there.

This is all very motivating for wanting to show more, sell more... do more photography (which is good as a business owner, however small my business may be right now).

Also, I've officially earned more with photography this month than with my "someone else employs me" job... not that I would say I'm really making a profit- and I certainly don't have spending money... but I think we're getting there. :)
eniarelocin: (fuzzy)
I'm going nuts today. I'm so anxious, I feel like I want to just jump out of my skin. When the baby moves, it is fairly twitchy too... flutter around in my pelvis and poking nerves that make my legs feel even worse. Especially the left one. I keep getting up to stretch. I tried laying down and doing relaxing techniques. I've changed my clothes probably three times. I keep changing my music to try to get something that will work.

Nothing is working.

What is up with this? Why is there no fixing?

The plan is trying going for a walk at lunch time with [livejournal.com profile] squidgyfishlove. I hope that does the trick because I have too much work to get done today for this. Of course it requires sitting in the office. I'm considering making myself some sort of cushion contraption so that I can actually tailor sit as long as possible like I'm supposed to.

BAH. GRHAHAHWHWHHAHRRRRRRRARARARARAAAAAAA. :(

Grump. Hrumph.

Make is stoooooooop. *whinge whinge moan*

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