Pains of Parenthood
Dec. 11th, 2007 03:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
eniarelocinEwan has his 2 Month doctor visit with Dr Mark yesterday, although he will not officially be 2 months until tomorrow.
The quick overview:
Length: 21.75 inches
Weight: 9.4 lbs
Vaccinations: Tetanus, Polio
He is in good health and growing right on track for his birth size. He is definitely growing.
Yesterday was very long, beginning with getting up at 6:30... and actually getting a move on after 7:30 once Ewan finished feeding. We originally had a 9am appointment and so left at about quarter past 8. However, traffic was horrendous (I'm assuming there was some sort of accident on I-5). By 9am, Ewan and I had only just made it to Lake Stevens so I called and rescheduled our appointment for 4:30pm later in the afternoon. So then we continued on our second mission of the day: collecting my mother from the airport. Her flight was due to arrive at 10:40am. By 10am we were still in Snohomish and really pushing it. Around 10:15 we finally made it into Everett and back to I-5. One of these days I'll learn not to go around. We made it to the cell phone waiting lot at the airport around 10:50... just in time for Mom to let us know she had landed and we collected her about 10 minutes later. Wrap that all up with feeding again, and a poo explosion and then we were off to Bellevue.
We basically spent the afternoon in Nordstroms which involved a tasty salad and a very nice lounge for feeding. I tried on some expensive clothes that didn't fit well and decided that my body fits nowhere. I also spent the afternoon feeling very self conscious about the fact that my clothes don't fit now and my hair isridiculously disgustingly overdue for a hair cut and some styling. I am the Almighty Frump Queen. Ewan decided to throw a strop over a desire to cluster feed so we left Mom in the CAFE for a good long with while I went back to the lounge to feed him again. However, the afternoon was pleasant and went quickly.
Hoping to avoid a repeat of the morning's traffic woes, we left with plenty of time to get to Kirkland and indeed arrived half an hour early for the appointment. I think I nearly fell asleep in the waiting room by then while sketching a self portrait of my reflection in one of the Christmas ornaments on the waiting room tree.
Our appointment began rather late ( I think we spent nearly an hour in the waiting room) and in the usual way with Ewan screaming. He's always hungry by the time we get in there. He was changed, weighed and lightly prodded and then got to feed. While feeding he received his injections, the first ever. He didn't even notice the Polio injection. However, while receiving the Tetanus injection his face turned red, his eyes widened with a very pointed desperation followed by a shriek and crying. That was horrible. I nearly cried. That look keeps flashing back and haunting me. It's not the first pain he's felt, but this time I caused it. I know it's necessary but it really tears me apart.
Other than the shots, I had Dr Mark check the cysts behind his ears. Ewan has a little bit of cradle cap but now I know what to do about it. Dr Mark says he's very much on track with this mental and motor skill development. He's tracking well and reaching up to crab things. His organs are fine. He does not have a heart murmur (this was never a concern, but checked routinely). All in all, Ewan is in very good health.
As for me, I need to be bracing my arms because I have Tendonitis in both arms. Of course I haven't actually done that yet... but I am working on using better support while feeding Ewan. Then, of course, there is the issue of my nutrition... eat more, eat better... basically this resulted in stopping at Trader Joe's for some grocery shopping in Totem Lake before heading back to drop Mom at her house. So I'm trying to watch how much protein I'm eating again. Of course if I'm not getting enough, then Ewan isn't likely to get enough either and that is unacceptable.
Dropping Mom at home turned into dinner and a movie at her house. We watched The Queen with Helen Mirren. I've been wanting to see that for some time. Mom fell asleep.
Not long after, I went home freezing and exhausted. Ewan slept. Fortunately he stayed asleep allowing me to head towards bed. I couldn't stay asleep though. I was too upset about the whole vaccine thing and the possibility of damaging him in any way. It doesn't help that we just watched A Beautiful Mind the other day- the Insulin injection scene really shook me. I did eventually get to sleep and this morning he seemed fine. We fell asleep together on the sofa for a little while which was really nice.
I haven't wanted to put him down. When it became time to get ready to go and hand him off to the MIL, he screamed and screamed. I went up to say to goodbye to him and was asked if he felt warm... he did a little but not much. The idea that he may have a fever didn't help in leaving. It was very difficult. I've been really tetchy since arriving at work and really working on not snapping at students. Especially when they trash the workroom.
I just want to go home and hold him, play with him, and make sure he's ok.
The quick overview:
Length: 21.75 inches
Weight: 9.4 lbs
Vaccinations: Tetanus, Polio
He is in good health and growing right on track for his birth size. He is definitely growing.
Yesterday was very long, beginning with getting up at 6:30... and actually getting a move on after 7:30 once Ewan finished feeding. We originally had a 9am appointment and so left at about quarter past 8. However, traffic was horrendous (I'm assuming there was some sort of accident on I-5). By 9am, Ewan and I had only just made it to Lake Stevens so I called and rescheduled our appointment for 4:30pm later in the afternoon. So then we continued on our second mission of the day: collecting my mother from the airport. Her flight was due to arrive at 10:40am. By 10am we were still in Snohomish and really pushing it. Around 10:15 we finally made it into Everett and back to I-5. One of these days I'll learn not to go around. We made it to the cell phone waiting lot at the airport around 10:50... just in time for Mom to let us know she had landed and we collected her about 10 minutes later. Wrap that all up with feeding again, and a poo explosion and then we were off to Bellevue.
We basically spent the afternoon in Nordstroms which involved a tasty salad and a very nice lounge for feeding. I tried on some expensive clothes that didn't fit well and decided that my body fits nowhere. I also spent the afternoon feeling very self conscious about the fact that my clothes don't fit now and my hair is
Hoping to avoid a repeat of the morning's traffic woes, we left with plenty of time to get to Kirkland and indeed arrived half an hour early for the appointment. I think I nearly fell asleep in the waiting room by then while sketching a self portrait of my reflection in one of the Christmas ornaments on the waiting room tree.
Our appointment began rather late ( I think we spent nearly an hour in the waiting room) and in the usual way with Ewan screaming. He's always hungry by the time we get in there. He was changed, weighed and lightly prodded and then got to feed. While feeding he received his injections, the first ever. He didn't even notice the Polio injection. However, while receiving the Tetanus injection his face turned red, his eyes widened with a very pointed desperation followed by a shriek and crying. That was horrible. I nearly cried. That look keeps flashing back and haunting me. It's not the first pain he's felt, but this time I caused it. I know it's necessary but it really tears me apart.
Other than the shots, I had Dr Mark check the cysts behind his ears. Ewan has a little bit of cradle cap but now I know what to do about it. Dr Mark says he's very much on track with this mental and motor skill development. He's tracking well and reaching up to crab things. His organs are fine. He does not have a heart murmur (this was never a concern, but checked routinely). All in all, Ewan is in very good health.
As for me, I need to be bracing my arms because I have Tendonitis in both arms. Of course I haven't actually done that yet... but I am working on using better support while feeding Ewan. Then, of course, there is the issue of my nutrition... eat more, eat better... basically this resulted in stopping at Trader Joe's for some grocery shopping in Totem Lake before heading back to drop Mom at her house. So I'm trying to watch how much protein I'm eating again. Of course if I'm not getting enough, then Ewan isn't likely to get enough either and that is unacceptable.
Dropping Mom at home turned into dinner and a movie at her house. We watched The Queen with Helen Mirren. I've been wanting to see that for some time. Mom fell asleep.
Not long after, I went home freezing and exhausted. Ewan slept. Fortunately he stayed asleep allowing me to head towards bed. I couldn't stay asleep though. I was too upset about the whole vaccine thing and the possibility of damaging him in any way. It doesn't help that we just watched A Beautiful Mind the other day- the Insulin injection scene really shook me. I did eventually get to sleep and this morning he seemed fine. We fell asleep together on the sofa for a little while which was really nice.
I haven't wanted to put him down. When it became time to get ready to go and hand him off to the MIL, he screamed and screamed. I went up to say to goodbye to him and was asked if he felt warm... he did a little but not much. The idea that he may have a fever didn't help in leaving. It was very difficult. I've been really tetchy since arriving at work and really working on not snapping at students. Especially when they trash the workroom.
I just want to go home and hold him, play with him, and make sure he's ok.
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Date: 2007-12-12 01:06 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-12-12 01:07 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-12-12 02:37 am (UTC)But I may still come... I have to get home and assess. Sorry for such a non-commital answer.
And I think you're right about everything you've said above. He's just so perfect right now, I don't want to screw him up.
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Date: 2007-12-19 06:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-12-19 08:03 pm (UTC)Did you get my text messages?
Was wondering if you're going to be down and/or available in the near future... or if there is a day/time whatever that I can come up and see you. It's been too long.
Did you know Kevbo is back in Bellingham?