So, let me begin by mentioning that
squidgyfishlove and I have made an embryo. In other words,
I'm Pregnant! And I'm very much excited about it. I think he is too, though he's easing into it a little more than I am.
The plan is to document the pregnancy and the progress of our little person (who we all think is a girl, even though it's too early to really know) in something we are calling
Project Pollywog. This is my first entry. He will be making entries as well. I believe there is going to be some sort of website or something created where we will compile these entries, each new ultrasound, and a picture of my growing belly taken daily starting last night.
So, I'm supposed to be blogging about how I'm feeling, and my experiences... so here goes:
Even though I've felt it for weeks, I was too afraid to even remotely admit that I felt it until the end of last week when I was almost two weeks late. And I didn't work up the nerve to by the test until
redcanoe yelled at me. She's scary. I couldn't argue. So, I slept with, clutching, the blanket I used to hold Maya (our friends' 7 month old) while she slept on me the week before. I was hoping maybe the baby vibes would rub off and it looks like they have!
I woke up very early (which I've been doing an awful lot lately) and laid there for a couple of hours. When I finally felt ready I went into the bathroom and took the test we had purchased the night before. I hate those things. They are so awkward. It almost immediately came up with the "+" sign that means positive result. I ran over the to the bed where Stephen was sleeping and drug him out by his arm, demanding he look at it and tell me what it said.
So, since then I've called my doctor and seen the OB. I had my blood drawn and our first prenatal visit on Tuesday. We are going to Overlake OB/GYN as we feel we will get better care there than anything closer to us. I was very nervous... I was trying not to cry while they did the ultrasound. I was so afraid nothing would be there, but obviously there is. However, even though the doc and I both saw a tiny flutter, he said he could not call it a definitive heart beat. He said it could mean I am a little earlier than usual dating would suggest (I may have ovulated even a couple of days late, but I don't think so), or it could just be because they don't have very high resolution equipment, they have the portable monitor. We are going in for a second ultrasound on this coming Tuesday at the high risk facility because they have more sensitive equipment. I am not considered high risk right now... it's just very early on and they want an accurate date. However, everything I've read says it's normal to
maybe see a heart beat at 6 weeks. And my friend who does medical transcription says that she sees cases all the time, one that same day actually, of women coming in at 6 weeks and not seeing a heartbeat, even though everything is just fine. I was 6w1d for that image, so it's really quite early.
I'm quite excited for 7 weeks. My Pregnancy Week by Week book showed quite a marked difference in the embryo (it's an embryo until about the end of the first trimester and then it's called a fetus) happening in week seven. And the baby more than doubles in size! Even though I don't look pregnant yet, it's really exciting to learn about all of the development that is happening. It's also a little scary because this is the time when the baby is most susceptible to damage and termination. Basically we have another 6-9 weeks before we're out of the woods, so to speak, but I think it's going to be okay.
I have to say, I'm really looking forward to getting the belly, and really
looking pregnant. Right now I feel it. I'm sick, tired, fluttery, my breasts are HUGE and sore, I get randomly dizzy and generally just don't have a lot of energy. I also have a super human sense of smell, which is weird. All of these things make me act oddly, but I don't really look different. Well... I look a little different. My cheeks are very rosy and apparently I glow a little. I'm ok with that. And even though it's probably not obvious to anyone else, we can feel a firmness in my tummy and little bit of a bump. Besides that, I'm uncomfortable in my clothes. My shirts are not long enough, no matter what I do. None of my bras fit. I feel constricted in everything except my lounging clothes- which of course I
do not wear in public.
So... with that... it's time for me to go feed the glow worm. Right now it looks a little like what you see below. Although, it looked better other times during the ultrasound. You could see a definite outline with a bright spot in the middle. I hope we get a better picture on Tuesday. But yeah, food calls. This kid is a bottomless pit, sapping every ounce of energy I have. And if I don't eat, I get very stroppy very quickly. So, hopefully more to come tomorrow.
