Raine: Patchwork Girl

Putting out my music and photography (but especially my music) feels a bit fruitless at times. It is easy to say 'I do it for my own satisfaction' and it is largely true but when you put it out in the world you also would like some, a little bit of, appreciation for what you're trying to do. What I do will never be viral, will never make me famous (I wouldn't want that bit) and will never on its own pay the bills but it still would be nice to know that some people do enjoy it. So you practise hundreds of hours, put on a little recital locally, perhaps twelve people attend if you're lucky. If you make an event on Facebook the first sixty comments are on the lines of 'Sorry I cannot make it this time ('or the previous, or the next' remain tacet).

It is true that I'm just not very good at 'selling the product' but still.

I s'pose I'm lucky that I can do it, nonetheless. I would be hopeless at any more 'normal' endeavour.