eniarelocin: (Heres lookin at you.)
Quick Post.

Me: Tired. Exhausted. Headaches. Love my son. Frustrated with the house. Stir Crazy. Still Tired. Getting the hang of it? Maybe not. Behind on correspondence. Misshapen. Not healed. Cluttered. Need Facial. Need Haircut. Clothes don't fit. Ready to get back to work. Worried about leaving Ewan too soon. Frustrated with family. Trying to be a good mum. Trying to be a good wife. Calm. Hungry. No concept of time whatsoever. Having a hard time putting down the baby.

Ewan: Bigger. Alert. Smiles. Giggles sometimes. Very talkative- much more so in the last week-ish. A little pudgier. Likes to swing. Likes to move. Likes to be read to. Dislikes diaper changes when wet. Warming up to baths. Sleeps on my chest. Does not like to be put down. Still has goopy eye. Feeding better. Eating constantly. Makes mummy tired. Makes mummy cry- happy tears, frustrated tears. Probably close to 8lbs but we'll find out tomorrow. Played with Dad today. Getting to know dad. Growing into his clothes. Growing so fast. Hair and skin so soft. Love his smell. Likes singing. Looks good in darker colours- blue, green, black. Looks ill in yellow. Has dad's toes. Has mom's nose. Has a belly button. Has mum's scowl. Has mum's dimples. Scratches. Likes to suck. Prefers pinky fingers. Enjoys many types of music. Angel.

[livejournal.com profile] squidyfishlove: Supportive. Trying to adapt. Working. Tired. Halo 3. King of the kitchen. Sleeping alone. Trying to like his son. Getting there.
eniarelocin: (Heres lookin at you.)
Outlook says it's Wednesday the 24th already. How in the bloody hell did that happen? I swear it must be last week!

Ewan is almost 2 weeks old, and I think we're sort of getting settled in. Today I'm trying to get a few things done because I can't take any more of this resting crap. I feel lazy- and that's no good. I do realize that if I don't rest then I won't heal, but a girl can only take so much. So, Ewan is trying out the sling so I can type a little bit. I have 4 pages of a bigger update in draft on the laptop... I'll post it at some point.

Ewan Updates

Yesterday we went to our 2 week postpartum visit at the midwife. She checked out Ewan- he's good. She checked out me- I'm good, including my stitches, with which I was a little concerned. I've lost 20lbs of my pregnancy weight... still 14 to go. Apparently this is a good thing, but I was really hoping it would all be gone. Alas, I think I know where the rest of it can be found- most of it is in my bra... the rest is sitting on my hips. BAH! Freakin' mom body.

Oh yeah... I'm a mum. Weeeeeird.

Ewan's weight experienced the usual drop following birth. The bench mark is to regain weight and return to birth weight by two weeks. As of yesterday, Ewan weighed 7lbs 2oz, so he's a little ahead of the curve. He's definitely been eating enough! This means that nursing is triumphant. We had some major troubles with that for the first week, but I think we're getting the hang of it... mostly. Stephen and I both think he's getting/gotten his first growth spurt. He already looks bigger and I think he's put on a little more baby pudge- namely in his cheeks. He's already growing up! *sob* Ah well... it probably wouldn't hurt him to grow into the newborn sized clothing. He's still a little guy.

Sadly, Ewan got his first heal prick yesterday. He took it like a man, but I didn't enjoy it. So I guess we're getting the PKU after all.

Other than that... Ewan is super cute. He shows off his dimples pretty regularly. I found his ticklish spot on his neck and he seems to like a little bit of tickling. I definitely like the very near giggling. He also has semi ticklish feet. I think he and I are getting along pretty well. He likes sleeping on my chest and I don't like putting him down so that's working out alright. He really enjoys classical music (though right now we're listening to the bleepy stuff). He still keeps me up a lot of the night, but we're getting better all around.

[livejournal.com profile] squidyfishlove has had to go back to work this week, so it's been a bit harder for me, but we're getting the hang of it. I don't think I could have survived last week if Stephen had been working... somewhat literally. I've had to be on extreme rest to get these stitches to heal and I'm still bleeding. There is a very direct correlation between the amount of bleeding and the amount of rest I get. I spent the last two days pretty much hanging out on the couch and watching movies with Ewan and so was doing a little better- until I started running up and down the stairs last night and trying to get ready for company (there has a been a lot of that too). Today I'm trying to find a balance. I can't stand to sit on my arse anymore, but I don't want to end up with an infection. I actually have antibiotics here if I need them because I had a fever and some yucky symptoms at the end of last week, but I have held off on starting them because my stomach has been bad enough without allowing those to strip my system. No thank you. Eating is hard enough as it is. Especially since we've been living off of pizza for the last three days... I'm so glad it's gone. Thankfully the pizza was offset with a box of SUPER JUICY pears, apples and other goodies from Harry and David, sent by aunt Linda, uncle mark, and cousin Adam. (THANK YOU!) I wish I could just ask for a glass of juice and have it magically appear again like I was getting so accustomed to with Stephen free.

He's really kicked in with the housework- I've been pretty impressed. He won't let anyone touch the kitchen- it's his area. I haven't done a single load of laundry since Ewan was born- I also can't find a lot of things, but oh well. Mom has been over here and there, but she mainly just gets to hold Ewan while I sleep or hang out and make food for me while I feed the little dude. The few days she's been able to come over have been really good. Now that everyone is back to work, except for me, and it's been a couple of weeks, I'm trying to adjust to life with baby. It's weird. I don't know where the time goes. It seems like I'm constantly feeding and changing him, I'm still pretty tired. But I really enjoy him being around all the time. It makes me weepy- in a good way. I fear I've gone soft.

Things I would like to do, however: get an entire night of sleep, feel truly rested, put on make-up, spend some time on skin care, ride my motorcycle!, clean everything, frame some things, hang some things, go visit [livejournal.com profile] kevbonium in Portland, go have some really good coffee, go snowboarding, etc.
eniarelocin: (Baby Boy Toes)

Originally uploaded by NicoleRaine

Ewan Andrew Terhune

Born 12 October, 2007, 02:14 AM. 7 lbs, 19.5 inches.

More pics of Ewan are here on Flickr.
eniarelocin: (Tiny Toes)
Today's post is brought to you by the letters A and G (for anxious and grumpy). Just fair warning.

So! Today marks the first day of the Third Trimester. Good bye relative comfort and having energy again. Good bye to being able to see my feet and reach them. Good bye riding my motorcycle. Good bye to still "having a ways to go."

Hello edema. Hello being tired all the time again. Hello increased back pain. Hello Braxton-Hicks Contractions. Hello Colostrom production and swollen breasts. Hello increased mood swings and crying fits. Hello Anxiety Attacks?! (What's that all about anyway?!) Hello driving on four wheels all the time, everywhere. Hello count down to baby. Hello birthing classes. Hello buying the big ticket items we've been putting off (like a carseat, the pushchair, and a breast pump). Hello pregnant waddle and unrelenting acid reflux.

But most importantly... in three months, Hello Baby!!! That's right. For those of you who need a reminder, our due date is 9 October- three months from today. Just a staggering 12 weeks to go after this one.

Second Trimester Wrap Up )
Third Trimester )
Baby Shower info and Registries )
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Today and yesterday have definitely been excited days. Yesterday especially, I could feel more going on and I've been in hirer spirits. Even the 'morning sickness' didn't seem so bad or bother me. I think I need to go to the spa more. ;)

Oh yeah, with that in mind- people asking me about birthday presents can get me gift certificates to Studio Donna in Everett. Even tom boys need to feel pretty once in a while.

So, we're really getting there now. The end of our first trimester is only a month away. Hopefully that means a lot of the discomfort I have had so far will go on hiatus. Everyone says the second trimester is the best one: you look pregnant and cute, aren't throwing up all the time, have some energy again, and aren't too big to get around yet. I think that sounds fabulous. Then it's the home stretch where I find out what it feels like to be a hippopotamus, or some other such gigantic creature with teeth.

Another thing I'm very excited about is the book [livejournal.com profile] squidgyfishlove got for me last night (as placation for buying a video game for himself- which I think he really likes): it's called Baby Sign Language Basics by Monta Z. Briant. I've been really excited about the idea of teaching the baby to sign for a long time. I will have to talk more about it later, but in the meantime you can check out Sign2Me.com for a little overview. I think the only hard part will be teaching the Grandparents how to do it so that we can keep things consistent.

Speaking of Grandparents and more on being excited, we're headed to Other Mother's and Babys'R'Us (where we will likely be registering later on) to go and scope out baby things. I think it will be fun... especially since we're starting our outing with Chinese food. Yum yum!
eniarelocin: (7w1d)
So guess who's been slacking? Oh! It's me!

So... What to say here? I'm grumpy and uncomfortable today. I bought some photo gear which should cheer me up, but it's been trumped by medical bills and finding out we can expect maybe two more ultrasounds over the next seven months. The exception to this would be if something was wrong and it became necessary. This is making me sad. This is really from where the grumpy stems. I know it's pretty normal for this to be the case, but we really like the sonograms and seeing the baby grow. Not just seeing me grow- which seems like it's very close on the horizon now.

Other than that, I haven't been quite as tired lately but my brain is certainly on respite. My food cravings have really reared their ugly head this week in the form of Chinese, Thai food, and yesterday pizza. I thought I was going to die if I didn't get some pizza STAT, and it was like tasting heaven when I finally did. Of course my order confused the pizza place enough that they called me back to make sure they understood what I wanted. I thought it was good moment in crazy for me. Generally, though, if it's spicy, I want some. My stomach is really growling now, but I don't want to eat. I'm grumpy.

So what else? Stephen thinks I'm getting a little bit bigger already. I think it feels like that is coming very soon. Things are stiffening up in my lower abdomen. It doesn't look much different. You wouldn't notice if you looked at me that anything was. We, however, can notice a difference in shape and firmness to the touch. Fortunately, no one else touches me there. But I do feel bigger. I hope it's not just more fat. I eat mostly veggies and things- other than the pizza- but I still worry about it given that I'm hungry all the time. And as long as I eat regularly (in small portions, mind you), and don't eat junk, I don't throw up either. Even though I've been going for walks and to yoga, I still feel like a heifer. I'm sure this will only get worse in the months to come.

Other than that, I'm annoyed that I'm not more excited. We've been reading book after book about pregnancy. They all describe a great deal of discomfort, but the woman is always so happy about it. I'm happy about it, but I thought it would be this euphoric experience where I am housing the miracle of life and somehow connecting with that. Instead I'm low on energy and brain power and having a hard time feeling productive. Although, I've been somewhat successful (in extremely small doses, mind you) of instigating the Nesting Instinct early and getting some things organized. The big problem is that I have school work that requires a lot of time. And I have at least a week's worth of housework to catch up on. I just feel behind, and lazy, and the house is a mess, and my face is breaking out, and I can't get comfortable, and a lot of other things. I think it would be nice, sometimes, to have the luxury of time for just taking naps and to somehow really just enjoy the fact that I'm going to be a mum soon.

Why can't I seem to do that?

Probably because anytime something good is going to happen, I say I'll be excited afterwards- stressing about the details and the tasks to be done to make it happen instead of going along for the ride. Let me tell you, I was a grumpy, grumpy bride for this reason. I don't want to be a grumpy pregnant lady as well. I wish I could figure out how to chill and go with the flow.

On the plus side, [livejournal.com profile] squidgyfishlove is really excited. I think he's taking this better than I am.
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So, let me begin by mentioning that [livejournal.com profile] squidgyfishlove and I have made an embryo. In other words, I'm Pregnant! And I'm very much excited about it. I think he is too, though he's easing into it a little more than I am.

The plan is to document the pregnancy and the progress of our little person (who we all think is a girl, even though it's too early to really know) in something we are calling Project Pollywog. This is my first entry. He will be making entries as well. I believe there is going to be some sort of website or something created where we will compile these entries, each new ultrasound, and a picture of my growing belly taken daily starting last night.

So, I'm supposed to be blogging about how I'm feeling, and my experiences... so here goes:
Even though I've felt it for weeks, I was too afraid to even remotely admit that I felt it until the end of last week when I was almost two weeks late. And I didn't work up the nerve to by the test until [livejournal.com profile] redcanoe yelled at me. She's scary. I couldn't argue. So, I slept with, clutching, the blanket I used to hold Maya (our friends' 7 month old) while she slept on me the week before. I was hoping maybe the baby vibes would rub off and it looks like they have!

I woke up very early (which I've been doing an awful lot lately) and laid there for a couple of hours. When I finally felt ready I went into the bathroom and took the test we had purchased the night before. I hate those things. They are so awkward. It almost immediately came up with the "+" sign that means positive result. I ran over the to the bed where Stephen was sleeping and drug him out by his arm, demanding he look at it and tell me what it said.

So, since then I've called my doctor and seen the OB. I had my blood drawn and our first prenatal visit on Tuesday. We are going to Overlake OB/GYN as we feel we will get better care there than anything closer to us. I was very nervous... I was trying not to cry while they did the ultrasound. I was so afraid nothing would be there, but obviously there is. However, even though the doc and I both saw a tiny flutter, he said he could not call it a definitive heart beat. He said it could mean I am a little earlier than usual dating would suggest (I may have ovulated even a couple of days late, but I don't think so), or it could just be because they don't have very high resolution equipment, they have the portable monitor. We are going in for a second ultrasound on this coming Tuesday at the high risk facility because they have more sensitive equipment. I am not considered high risk right now... it's just very early on and they want an accurate date. However, everything I've read says it's normal to maybe see a heart beat at 6 weeks. And my friend who does medical transcription says that she sees cases all the time, one that same day actually, of women coming in at 6 weeks and not seeing a heartbeat, even though everything is just fine. I was 6w1d for that image, so it's really quite early.

I'm quite excited for 7 weeks. My Pregnancy Week by Week book showed quite a marked difference in the embryo (it's an embryo until about the end of the first trimester and then it's called a fetus) happening in week seven. And the baby more than doubles in size! Even though I don't look pregnant yet, it's really exciting to learn about all of the development that is happening. It's also a little scary because this is the time when the baby is most susceptible to damage and termination. Basically we have another 6-9 weeks before we're out of the woods, so to speak, but I think it's going to be okay.

I have to say, I'm really looking forward to getting the belly, and really looking pregnant. Right now I feel it. I'm sick, tired, fluttery, my breasts are HUGE and sore, I get randomly dizzy and generally just don't have a lot of energy. I also have a super human sense of smell, which is weird. All of these things make me act oddly, but I don't really look different. Well... I look a little different. My cheeks are very rosy and apparently I glow a little. I'm ok with that. And even though it's probably not obvious to anyone else, we can feel a firmness in my tummy and little bit of a bump. Besides that, I'm uncomfortable in my clothes. My shirts are not long enough, no matter what I do. None of my bras fit. I feel constricted in everything except my lounging clothes- which of course I do not wear in public.

So... with that... it's time for me to go feed the glow worm. Right now it looks a little like what you see below. Although, it looked better other times during the ultrasound. You could see a definite outline with a bright spot in the middle. I hope we get a better picture on Tuesday. But yeah, food calls. This kid is a bottomless pit, sapping every ounce of energy I have. And if I don't eat, I get very stroppy very quickly. So, hopefully more to come tomorrow.

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