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eniarelocinI haven't updated regarding Ewan in over a month. Shame on me.
He's grown so much. This week he's a screech monkey. He's making all sorts of crazy noises at an incredible volume, and I think he really enjoys it. He's grabbing things with pretty good precision and is able to pass them from hand to hand... even though he's not completely proficient yet.
He's really growing up already. He's bigger, he's brighter, he's broadening his emotional spectrum which now includes more laughing, tantrums, and a definite preference for certain people over others. He says his own versions of 'mama' and 'hi' as well of a host of other sounds that definitely mean things. He's drinking out of cups and wants to be eating our food.
He's also, I think, less satisfied with just breastmilk and I think we're getting to the verge of solid food eating, and the adventures therein. He hasn't quite sprouted a tooth yet so we'll have to hold him off a little longer... and I would really like to try to make it to six months before we give him solids. However, unfortunately, there has been some formula added in to the mix due to me being so busy and, sadly, away from him more than I was. I don't produce well when I'm stressed and that seems to be part of the norm these days. There area lot of times where I feel like a bad mother for not being with him every second of the day, but on the other hand I just get depressed if I don't embrace my ambitions. And right now I'm reminding myself that this is an investment for our futures. I don't think Stephen sees it that way. I don't think he believes in me at all (I'm pretty sure he's just humouring me). However, I figure if I can be even mildly successful, even if I'm just teaching, it will almost double our household income. That has to be good.
Either way, I want Ewan to be proud of me for getting my degree and producing something good. I don't want that to be at the cost our relationship or his well being, but I do think this will benefit us all in the long run.
Anyway... Ewan is amazing. He makes me really happy. I love it when he laughs and giggles. He's such a sweet little dude. He has a good little heart and an inquisitive mind. I think he and I are going to have wonderful adventures together. As much as I love him being a baby and will miss that when he gets older, I'm really looking forward to doing little kid things with him and helping him grow into a capible, independent guy.
He's grown so much. This week he's a screech monkey. He's making all sorts of crazy noises at an incredible volume, and I think he really enjoys it. He's grabbing things with pretty good precision and is able to pass them from hand to hand... even though he's not completely proficient yet.
He's really growing up already. He's bigger, he's brighter, he's broadening his emotional spectrum which now includes more laughing, tantrums, and a definite preference for certain people over others. He says his own versions of 'mama' and 'hi' as well of a host of other sounds that definitely mean things. He's drinking out of cups and wants to be eating our food.
He's also, I think, less satisfied with just breastmilk and I think we're getting to the verge of solid food eating, and the adventures therein. He hasn't quite sprouted a tooth yet so we'll have to hold him off a little longer... and I would really like to try to make it to six months before we give him solids. However, unfortunately, there has been some formula added in to the mix due to me being so busy and, sadly, away from him more than I was. I don't produce well when I'm stressed and that seems to be part of the norm these days. There area lot of times where I feel like a bad mother for not being with him every second of the day, but on the other hand I just get depressed if I don't embrace my ambitions. And right now I'm reminding myself that this is an investment for our futures. I don't think Stephen sees it that way. I don't think he believes in me at all (I'm pretty sure he's just humouring me). However, I figure if I can be even mildly successful, even if I'm just teaching, it will almost double our household income. That has to be good.
Either way, I want Ewan to be proud of me for getting my degree and producing something good. I don't want that to be at the cost our relationship or his well being, but I do think this will benefit us all in the long run.
Anyway... Ewan is amazing. He makes me really happy. I love it when he laughs and giggles. He's such a sweet little dude. He has a good little heart and an inquisitive mind. I think he and I are going to have wonderful adventures together. As much as I love him being a baby and will miss that when he gets older, I'm really looking forward to doing little kid things with him and helping him grow into a capible, independent guy.
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