Project Pollywog: 40 Weeks, 3 Days, 14:28

[eniarelocin]

Bye bye Home Birth

So, I went to the birthing center so that Darlene could check that my water has actually broken, and it has. Unfortunately my blood pressure was 152 over 92 which puts and end to home birth.

We are being sent to Anacortes to have the baby. I am officially high risk now. The worry is that my blood pressure will keep climbing (Darlene says that's almost a given) and that it will/could lead to seizure. So, I will have to wear a monitor. I will most likely have to have an IV. I will likely be given Pitocin to hurry along labor as they will want the baby out.

Our new goal is no C-Section. I've been bawling and very upset, but trying to calm down and realize that it's better for the baby and better for salvaging our birth experience. The baby is moving and ok, but seems to have rolled over again all of the sudden.

On top of all of this, one of Darlene's other moms is in need of her care all of the sudden so she cannot attend our birth. We will be attended by Dr. Larson. Also, Darlene has arranged a Doula for us whose name is ... well I can't remember now, but she'll be there around 4.

So I need to finish doing what I'm doing to get ready and read out of here before someone takes my bed. They've kicked out a postpartum mother so I could have it. Losing that bed would really top off the day.

So we'll try to keep updating from the hospital, but I really don't know how that will go, or how easy it will be.

Fingers crossed.

We're going to have our baby. I'm really sorry baby, I feel like I've failed you already.

Comments

[anachronologist.livejournal.com]

tho C-sections are pushed perhaps more enthusiastically than previously, I can totally vouch for them. Our Jillie was born c-section (in a 40+ week labor, sound familiar?) and they went in because - as we later learned - the placenta had already begun to detatch, putting Jillie in danger.

It was a bit longer recovery time for Lizz, but in the end, it was for the best.

After all is said and done, the best thing for mother and baby is ALWAYS going to be the best choice.

*sending healthy thoughts your way*

[medusa.livejournal.com]

You haven't failed at all! Everything is going to be just fine. *big hugs* xxx

[sparklielizard.livejournal.com]

Awww no, I'm sorry :-( It's not your fault though, you haven't failed your baby. The most important thing of all is healthy baby and healthy you, and you're left with no choice. It's at times like these that it's good there are medical interventions available; homebirth is only great if you don't need them. It seems like you do - it's rotten bad luck, but *not* *not* *not* your fault!

You can but do your best and we all know you will! It'll be fine, really, however your little one comes out in the end :-)

Thinking of you! I hope you don't get any more bad luck and it goes better from here on in :-)

[drinktosorrow.livejournal.com]

Although I'm sure you'll read this after baby is here, and therefore not have nearly as much meaning, I still feel a need to say that you have not failed. You have done as much as you possibly can to make your child's entrance into this world as pleasant as possible. How can making sure it's getting the care it will need be any kind of failure?

Your child is lucky. Very lucky. To have two parents who love and care for it so much. It's already been blessed (in a very non-Christian sense of the word) by so much love, even before its grand entrance into this world. That's more than a lot of people can say.

I hope everything goes well. Despite the birth not being what you planned originally. I pray that baby will be born safe and healthy, and that you too will be safe and healthy during the birth. And afterwards.

Much love. Sending good thoughts your way.

[screepy.livejournal.com]

oh noes. i'm sorry things aren't starting out the way you'd planned. that certainly doesn't make you a failure, though. i'm sure everything will be okay. good luck... :)

[poggs.livejournal.com]

You have not failed in the slightest.

Quite the opposite.

You have done what is best and safest.

I don't consider that a failing. x

[mightymartynus.livejournal.com]

You'll be okay, Raine! You have the support of family, friends and a loving husband, so don't worry - you haven't failed anybody. Just focus, breathe deep and set your mind on just the next immediate step, each time - so, at each contraction, just focus on getting through that one then focus on the next one. Take it as it comes, and remember the breathing.

Good luck, Raine. We're with you. xx

[lunar-echo.livejournal.com]

Thinking of you, and sending prayers. *hugs*

Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!

[(Anonymous)]

Can't wait to meet the lil one!! Cannot wait to see the photos of your new lil family :D

Lots of love to you..
Saara xx