Project Pollywog: 40 Weeks, 3 Days, 14:28

[eniarelocin]

Bye bye Home Birth

So, I went to the birthing center so that Darlene could check that my water has actually broken, and it has. Unfortunately my blood pressure was 152 over 92 which puts and end to home birth.

We are being sent to Anacortes to have the baby. I am officially high risk now. The worry is that my blood pressure will keep climbing (Darlene says that's almost a given) and that it will/could lead to seizure. So, I will have to wear a monitor. I will most likely have to have an IV. I will likely be given Pitocin to hurry along labor as they will want the baby out.

Our new goal is no C-Section. I've been bawling and very upset, but trying to calm down and realize that it's better for the baby and better for salvaging our birth experience. The baby is moving and ok, but seems to have rolled over again all of the sudden.

On top of all of this, one of Darlene's other moms is in need of her care all of the sudden so she cannot attend our birth. We will be attended by Dr. Larson. Also, Darlene has arranged a Doula for us whose name is ... well I can't remember now, but she'll be there around 4.

So I need to finish doing what I'm doing to get ready and read out of here before someone takes my bed. They've kicked out a postpartum mother so I could have it. Losing that bed would really top off the day.

So we'll try to keep updating from the hospital, but I really don't know how that will go, or how easy it will be.

Fingers crossed.

We're going to have our baby. I'm really sorry baby, I feel like I've failed you already.

Comments

[drinktosorrow.livejournal.com]

Although I'm sure you'll read this after baby is here, and therefore not have nearly as much meaning, I still feel a need to say that you have not failed. You have done as much as you possibly can to make your child's entrance into this world as pleasant as possible. How can making sure it's getting the care it will need be any kind of failure?

Your child is lucky. Very lucky. To have two parents who love and care for it so much. It's already been blessed (in a very non-Christian sense of the word) by so much love, even before its grand entrance into this world. That's more than a lot of people can say.

I hope everything goes well. Despite the birth not being what you planned originally. I pray that baby will be born safe and healthy, and that you too will be safe and healthy during the birth. And afterwards.

Much love. Sending good thoughts your way.